Im officially missin' you.

nothing to be sad about. im just missing a friend whom always texted me all these while.
used to kept me entertained. is just one day without messaging i feel lonely. why do i have such feelings arent we;re just friends???
hoping i can slowly forget about what i went through and continue with my normal life back then. why must come in to my life and exit like that. =[ im in a whirl im confuse. why will a person ask you out on his birthday and not want you to know about it and thanked you for spending the night with. im confused. and i've made a silly decision to hurt myself was to accept to be part of my life. i made a huge mistakes, I missed my days when im neutral and not troubling over these matters. i hate this feelings. why are you that good to me in the first place when everyone not the same to you. D= you didnt really treat everyone the same or you are just kidding me you dont treat everyone the same. and it hurts me now. i hope with time i will heal and get away... please dont ask me out but actually im good with going out but please dont treat me as a special ones. i will be grateful for it better than im suffering now alone w/o you knowing. it's cruel!