Why will i treasure a plushie Oasis eventhough i thought that i dont have any feelings for the gifter... maybe he's too sweet and comfortable to get along. I think he's treating everyone this way so there's nothing special to think and say about. Why am i looking forward to a sms so happily when i texted him. sigh... dont let my thoughts go wild and be normal friend. =D D=
sigh.... stop thinking.
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Showing posts with label my thoughts. Show all posts
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Friday, April 06, 2012
Self disappointment~ =((
I hope this disappoinment can wake me up. im very dissappointed with myself bcos it has been so long nearly six months since my dad left us. I have not changed. i always take life for granted and didnt make my life a meaningful ones
我是真的真的对自己非常的感到失望。 应为我就是不会感到惭愧和不懂的改过自新呢？
我心内现在是多么的伤心因为我很没用， 我很清楚拳拳的原因。 已半年了为何我还没醒来? 就快二十一岁了还不懂事， 我希望从明天起， 我不只是光着口说大话却没把事做好。
What can i do to change? my brother already told me that night infront of my dad in order for a person to be motivate one has to start writing down what one wants to achieve and write down what one needs to accomplish to reach the aim. will that really work for me im such a lazy person. I must really change for a better person. i need to grow up from now and be more sensible and responsible from now.
I thinking i should not say maybe i should try to jot down what i want in life is now i shall type down what i want to achieve. i know myself well enough. recalled back to that afternoon. Why i couldnt make my promise all i know now it;s just because i know i can not fulfil my promise to my dad. and i know i will always cry, tear infront of my cpu screen will not work from now. I need to change for a better and live a better life becoming a better person and never let my family to worry about me now. i will not blame myself for being a failure all these while only thing i can do for myself and my dad starting from now is to not be lazy and work, study and be a good girl.
I dont want to just make an empty promise now.
NO POINT CRYING NOW!!!!!
im going to list down what i want to achieve now. and must be realistic and achieveable to motivate myself.
- I got to start reading up notes for my work progress
- concentrate on my studies from now and make sure i will do well from this apr semester.
- do not waste much time from now i need to grow up.
okay be more specific
~ I need to start reading up my service thingy by this week
~ I need to make sure i know everything aboiiut my work
~ i always complete my task when i am assign to on the day itself to break the habit of procrastinating.
~ i will slowly kick away the habit of laziness.
~ must always say it and do it,
~ finish my course by june.
~ add on a new wish to my birthday this apr. I must do it once things are assign and not to be lazy anymore.
Because that will destroy me
i want to do something that will let my dad feel proud of me, I LOVE YOU MY DAD & MOM together with my two sisters. I love you all much. I want to change myswelf from now for you all and myself.
this will be my lil promise from now to myself. i must not break it. pleasse.
i will not end my passage here coz i believe there will be a better ending. =)?
signing off
pinksecretive lady
我是真的真的对自己非常的感到失望。 应为我就是不会感到惭愧和不懂的改过自新呢？
我心内现在是多么的伤心因为我很没用， 我很清楚拳拳的原因。 已半年了为何我还没醒来? 就快二十一岁了还不懂事， 我希望从明天起， 我不只是光着口说大话却没把事做好。
What can i do to change? my brother already told me that night infront of my dad in order for a person to be motivate one has to start writing down what one wants to achieve and write down what one needs to accomplish to reach the aim. will that really work for me im such a lazy person. I must really change for a better person. i need to grow up from now and be more sensible and responsible from now.
I thinking i should not say maybe i should try to jot down what i want in life is now i shall type down what i want to achieve. i know myself well enough. recalled back to that afternoon. Why i couldnt make my promise all i know now it;s just because i know i can not fulfil my promise to my dad. and i know i will always cry, tear infront of my cpu screen will not work from now. I need to change for a better and live a better life becoming a better person and never let my family to worry about me now. i will not blame myself for being a failure all these while only thing i can do for myself and my dad starting from now is to not be lazy and work, study and be a good girl.
I dont want to just make an empty promise now.
NO POINT CRYING NOW!!!!!
im going to list down what i want to achieve now. and must be realistic and achieveable to motivate myself.
- I got to start reading up notes for my work progress
- concentrate on my studies from now and make sure i will do well from this apr semester.
- do not waste much time from now i need to grow up.
okay be more specific
~ I need to start reading up my service thingy by this week
~ I need to make sure i know everything aboiiut my work
~ i always complete my task when i am assign to on the day itself to break the habit of procrastinating.
~ i will slowly kick away the habit of laziness.
~ must always say it and do it,
~ finish my course by june.
~ add on a new wish to my birthday this apr. I must do it once things are assign and not to be lazy anymore.
Because that will destroy me
i want to do something that will let my dad feel proud of me, I LOVE YOU MY DAD & MOM together with my two sisters. I love you all much. I want to change myswelf from now for you all and myself.
this will be my lil promise from now to myself. i must not break it. pleasse.
i will not end my passage here coz i believe there will be a better ending. =)?
signing off
pinksecretive lady
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Random thoughts.
Second post of the night~!
Now, I finally can feel why do people around me blog their daily life even there's no reader.
Reasons behind it can be how I felt. Personally think that, I am blogging now to express my internal feelings which i will not express it to anyone and this can only be pour out here online. I bet you have the same feeeling as me.
that's what i realised after i kept a secret blog from a taiwan based hosting titled 'wretch.cc'. At that time, i kept my every entries locked with a password which can only be accessed by me alone. but, you might be wondering why do i open my blog entry up to the public now is that I thinking that there's nothing to hide at all. Why I do hide my internal feelings. I need a medium that can allows me to vent out my anger and shared or post out my bits and pieces of my moods.
Another random topic i want to talk about from my point of view is:
Will a person somehow look like someone who he/she admires? It can be ldolizing a star or be it loving your best friend or even between a couple. From what i see, i realized people will somehow look like each other he always look at everyday. For example, i have seen a blogger from malaysia looking alie like angelababy (68%) because angelababy is her idol since she was young and wished to be like her so much. and yet i think she had succeeded at last having the shadow of a person.
Although, this was not proven by and scienticfic records till now, I still believe my own saying, because you see, how can one say or see why a couples have a couple face? can it be just purely 'fated' like how everybody said? No, i still support my own saying that stated above.
Okay, if you're stil not convince by me. Let me share my own experiences, in the past i used to like Miyake so much because she was one of the person who i looked up to for gyaru style and somehow found out that some of my camwhore pictures looked (70%) just like her. Second personal experience was, i used to click on one infamous blogger everyday, same reasons was just plainly sourcing for gyaru information. shockingly i also realised i looked like her sometimes in the pictures i took. I need not to repeat myself for many times of the topic i discussing.
But belive it or not, I also see cases from one of my friend's friend who is liking a popteen model named mizukitty as her nickname. she looked like her now. that's scary i can say~@!
So here's my wish.
1. I wish to look like angelababy one day or
2. Looking like kumicky from popteen magazine
or 3. Tsubasa Masuwaka from popsister!
Yooppie! I LOVE em ALL~!
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE~! LOVE LOVE LOVE TSUBASA!
and gyaru all the way.....
Now, I finally can feel why do people around me blog their daily life even there's no reader.
Reasons behind it can be how I felt. Personally think that, I am blogging now to express my internal feelings which i will not express it to anyone and this can only be pour out here online. I bet you have the same feeeling as me.
that's what i realised after i kept a secret blog from a taiwan based hosting titled 'wretch.cc'. At that time, i kept my every entries locked with a password which can only be accessed by me alone. but, you might be wondering why do i open my blog entry up to the public now is that I thinking that there's nothing to hide at all. Why I do hide my internal feelings. I need a medium that can allows me to vent out my anger and shared or post out my bits and pieces of my moods.
Another random topic i want to talk about from my point of view is:
Will a person somehow look like someone who he/she admires? It can be ldolizing a star or be it loving your best friend or even between a couple. From what i see, i realized people will somehow look like each other he always look at everyday. For example, i have seen a blogger from malaysia looking alie like angelababy (68%) because angelababy is her idol since she was young and wished to be like her so much. and yet i think she had succeeded at last having the shadow of a person.
Although, this was not proven by and scienticfic records till now, I still believe my own saying, because you see, how can one say or see why a couples have a couple face? can it be just purely 'fated' like how everybody said? No, i still support my own saying that stated above.
Okay, if you're stil not convince by me. Let me share my own experiences, in the past i used to like Miyake so much because she was one of the person who i looked up to for gyaru style and somehow found out that some of my camwhore pictures looked (70%) just like her. Second personal experience was, i used to click on one infamous blogger everyday, same reasons was just plainly sourcing for gyaru information. shockingly i also realised i looked like her sometimes in the pictures i took. I need not to repeat myself for many times of the topic i discussing.
But belive it or not, I also see cases from one of my friend's friend who is liking a popteen model named mizukitty as her nickname. she looked like her now. that's scary i can say~@!
So here's my wish.
1. I wish to look like angelababy one day or
2. Looking like kumicky from popteen magazine
or 3. Tsubasa Masuwaka from popsister!
Yooppie! I LOVE em ALL~!
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE~! LOVE LOVE LOVE TSUBASA!
and gyaru all the way.....
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